August 9, 2012: Post 576 (2012 Day 222)
August 9, 2012
Daily Comment
LI have a legendary lack of will-power and impulse control. It is lucky I'm not an angry person so, usually, I am the only personal who has to deal with the resulting problems.
In recent history, though, my will-power, when tested, has, for the most part, held. And my impulses have been of a sort that I'm not inclined to stifle.
But I fear that fort won't hold. Recently, I bought some learning programs that seemed like something that would be beneficial and even fun, but quickly turned uninteresting. Impulse buying is really to be avoided at all costs.
And today, I am processing the fact that I broke my fast, early, with an ice cream sundae.
That's actually the reason I'm writing this. I'm going to Hell in a hand-basket. And writing about it.
The fact is, these lapses don't bother me nearly as much as they once would have (or for as long). I like to think that I've let go a bit of some of my tight-ass ways, where they occurred. I think I have. I hope, for the benefit of friends and family, that I am a little bit less of an asshole today than I've been in the past.
Yes, I hope that is the grand trajectory of my life: Asshole, to...
Not as big an asshole.
I will leave that judgment to historians.
Laughing out loud..
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Food and Diet Section
Today's Weight: 205.8 lbs
Yesterday's Weight: 201.6 lbs
Day Net Loss/Gain: + 4.2 lbs
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| Year 2012 daily weight from December 31, 2011. |
Diet Comment:
Diet? What diet? This week is shaping up poorly. My fast today lasted exactly until I was tempted, in this case, about 17 hours. And then, train wreck. Oh, well, it didn't kill me, and I will eat again. And so on.
Food Log
Breakfast
Dinner
Skipped.
Lunch
Skipped.
Snack
Vanilla ice cream with walnuts, peanuts, M&Ms and Oreo pieces (see picture from yesterday, if you must).
Lunch
Skipped.
Snack
Vanilla ice cream with walnuts, peanuts, M&Ms and Oreo pieces (see picture from yesterday, if you must).
Dinner
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| Grass-fed burgers with whole seed Dijon mustard, cole slaw, and Spring Mix with balsamic vinaigrette. |
Snack
Hard-boiled eggs, baby carrots, home-made mayonnaise.
Liquid Intake
Coffee: 30 oz, Water: 120+ ozHard-boiled eggs, baby carrots, home-made mayonnaise.
Liquid Intake
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posted by Reverend Ken at
10:42 AM
2 Comments:
Ken, I firmly think it is an inalienable right/plight of anyone with a personality (the outward projection of our ego, in other words, all of us) to, at times, act like an asshole, be seen as an asshole, and see other personalities as an asshole.We usually find ourselves acting like assholes when we are in conflict.Either inner conflict or inter-personality (ego) conflict.
The thing about life is, you can't help it.Shit happens! (this phrase should be added to "phrases that are meaningful to me"). As long as we occupy our bodies (until death do us part) we will have ego projecting through personality in order to communicate and interact with the outer other. Our self-reality goes beyond our ego-reality,beyond the world of duality,where there is no division of self and other. No division = no conflict = no problem.
It is our ego that tells us that we can do, control, effect the outcomes of of interaction with the outer world.The ego lives in aggressive denial of authority greater than its' own. Agressive because it fears loss, of control.it fears its own death. It acts as though the very existence success of this individual depends on its activity and will. It is deluded,and all actions it is involvrd in have crazy outcomes,other than intended.
Ken, although I have always loved you, there were times when I didn't like you and even didn't want to be around you. Those times are long past, as we have both grown and evolved, I have seen through your personality and see all the qualities of great (no longer grating) human being who I want to relate to as long as I am alive
Hey- life happens. I hope you have learned to depend on yourself to get back on the horse because that is all it takes. Just keep on going, step by step. I hope you had fun yesterday. Love you both
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