May 15, 2012: Post 136, Day 136
May 15, 2012
Daily Comment
Yesterday and today, work just sucked.
There really isn't a simpler way to say it than that, and I'm not even sure it needs any further explanation, beyond the idea that the tasks in my job come in a feast-or-famine manner - it is not scheduled work, I'm really just a repairman, and when things aren't broke or in need of maintenance, I have nothing to do.
I'm sometimes busy, sometimes not, but I have been slammed the last few days. It happens. I would like to say I'm not complaining, but I am, because this job's main saving grace (besides the fact that I actually have it) is that it is not stressful.
So, I'm complaining, and yet, at the same time, I know a couple of things:
First, of course, is that I should be, and am, grateful to have a job. This is not just lip service, I really am, and I think about that a lot, and in that way.
Second, this period of too-busy will pass. And, yes, I will be better at my job at the end of it. I'm not one of those people who has a problem being under-utilized or under-employed at work. With less than 45 months to go until I stop working, if the rest of my work-life was not busy, my job satisfaction would be very high.
A Facebook friend asked the question today, "What is your dream job?" I didn't have to pause and think to answer: "No job."
There are things I like to do, and I can imagine a pleasant environment to do them in, but I can't imagine them as jobs.
I play bass, sometimes for money, but if I thought of it as work (which, looked at from some perspectives, it could be), I probably wouldn't enjoy it and do it. Clearly, that is not my attitude. So, I guess you could say that playing bass would be my perfect job, except that it would have to be much more qualified to be perfect: Playing bass a) only when I want to, which means that other people would have to either acquiesce to my whims (I don't enjoy playing bass alone, and I do enjoy performing, so I need an audience, too); and b) not playing bass when I don't want to. Then, it's a perfect job. And, of course, it's just a fantasy, that is divorced from my understanding of reality.
However, since I have a hand in creating the reality I perceive, I think when I am free from having to work a job, I'll find things to do. Bass playing will become a hobby. Photography will become a hobby. And, perhaps (hopefully) I will discover more things to fill my time as I go along in my post-job life.
Lazy? Maybe. Certainly not when I'm doing something I want to do. I have always been a worker of necessity, not desire, ambition, wealth-creation. I haven't had the job that I did out of joy for the work. But I've worked tirelessly when I found the task rewarding.
There really isn't a simpler way to say it than that, and I'm not even sure it needs any further explanation, beyond the idea that the tasks in my job come in a feast-or-famine manner - it is not scheduled work, I'm really just a repairman, and when things aren't broke or in need of maintenance, I have nothing to do.
I'm sometimes busy, sometimes not, but I have been slammed the last few days. It happens. I would like to say I'm not complaining, but I am, because this job's main saving grace (besides the fact that I actually have it) is that it is not stressful.
So, I'm complaining, and yet, at the same time, I know a couple of things:
First, of course, is that I should be, and am, grateful to have a job. This is not just lip service, I really am, and I think about that a lot, and in that way.
Second, this period of too-busy will pass. And, yes, I will be better at my job at the end of it. I'm not one of those people who has a problem being under-utilized or under-employed at work. With less than 45 months to go until I stop working, if the rest of my work-life was not busy, my job satisfaction would be very high.
A Facebook friend asked the question today, "What is your dream job?" I didn't have to pause and think to answer: "No job."
There are things I like to do, and I can imagine a pleasant environment to do them in, but I can't imagine them as jobs.
I play bass, sometimes for money, but if I thought of it as work (which, looked at from some perspectives, it could be), I probably wouldn't enjoy it and do it. Clearly, that is not my attitude. So, I guess you could say that playing bass would be my perfect job, except that it would have to be much more qualified to be perfect: Playing bass a) only when I want to, which means that other people would have to either acquiesce to my whims (I don't enjoy playing bass alone, and I do enjoy performing, so I need an audience, too); and b) not playing bass when I don't want to. Then, it's a perfect job. And, of course, it's just a fantasy, that is divorced from my understanding of reality.
However, since I have a hand in creating the reality I perceive, I think when I am free from having to work a job, I'll find things to do. Bass playing will become a hobby. Photography will become a hobby. And, perhaps (hopefully) I will discover more things to fill my time as I go along in my post-job life.
Lazy? Maybe. Certainly not when I'm doing something I want to do. I have always been a worker of necessity, not desire, ambition, wealth-creation. I haven't had the job that I did out of joy for the work. But I've worked tirelessly when I found the task rewarding.
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Food and Diet Section
Today's Weight: 197.6 lbs
Yesterday's Weight: 198.8 lbs
Net Loss/Gain: - 1.2 lbs
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| Year 2012 daily weight from December 31, 2011. |
Diet Comment:
Yesterday's somewhat normal day of eating yielded nice results that, boringly, took me below the trendline (even moved it lower a tad. There's an ebb and flow, but not really that much rhythm, until you look at the big picture (see chart).
Food Log
Breakfast
Lunch
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| Kale smoothie: kale, almond milk, an egg, vanilla whey protein powder (36g protein), vanilla, cinnamon, stevia-inulin blend. |
Lunch
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| Roasted turkey breast, Spring Mix greens, red cabbage, a hard-boiled egg and balsamic vinaigrette. |
Pepperoni and celery.
Dinner
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| Chicken sausage with basil, tomato and mozzarella cheese and broccoli with lentil-tomato soup. |
Liquid Intake
Coffee: 22 oz, Water 96+ oz
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