June 14, 2012: Post 520 (2012 Day 166) - Fast Day

June 14, 2012

Daily Comment

Continuing from yesterday:  There is a difference between being competitive and competing.

Being competitive means you have the means, skill, talent, experience, knowledge, strength, resources, or some combination of these, to compete. A different meaning is that you have a mindset that seeks out competition.

I like to think I inhabit the first definition, exclusively. That is what I like to think, but it isn't true. I have some instincts that put me in the competitive mood. I'm working on it.

In all things, though, I feel better in a cooperative environment. I function better that way, and I think I am at my most creative and productive functioning as part of a team/group/ensemble. It's a social thing. It's a tribal thing.

This does have a negative effect. It is probably the reason I'm not rich, even though I'm a very good money manager. Being a good money manager isn't the same as having a lot of money to manage.

Having the inclination to make money is something else again. In general, it takes the other kind of competitive mindset, and it also requires making the accumulation of material wealth a priority.

That is where it all falls apart for me. I don't have either of those things, although I've been through periods when I had one or the other. I think if I'd ever had a good measure of both, the desire and the competitive mindset, I would be rich. Once, when I had a lot of the desire, and a little of the competitive mindset, I was. It didn't last.

Hopefully, my 'success' in life will be measured by... well, by nobody. What good is it to determine how successful anyone's life is? What living person is really qualified to determine that? And what possible use could it be put to? Only people with the competitive mindset would care.

That leaves me out.

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Food and Diet Section

Today's Weight:        204.2 lbs 
Yesterday's Weight:    204.2   lbs
Day Net Loss/Gain:     - 0.0 lbs

Year 2012 daily weight from December 31, 2011.

Diet Comment:

Stuck. At. Same. Weight. Three. Days. Today's fast may or may not help. Yesterday's really quite moderate food intake did not.


I will not make my stated goal of getting under 200 pounds by the weekend, and just in case there was a remote chance of that, due to social commitments, this week, cheat day is tomorrow, Friday, so on Saturday, I expect to be at a weekly high weight.

Food Log

Breakfast
Skipped.

Lunch
Skipped.

Dinner

Shahi Rajma (red bean curry) with spinach and eggs. Not shown: Coca kale smoothie: Kale, vanilla whey protein (24g protein), almond milk, cocoa powder, vanilla, cinnamon and stevia-inulin blend.

Liquid Intake

    Coffee:   35 oz,   Water:124+ oz

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