July 7 2012: Post 543 (2012 Day 189) - Cheat Day

July 7, 2012

Daily Comment

Lately, I've been pooping out early.

Sometimes I get so tired, I fall asleep sitting up.

This recently caused me to fail to honor some commitments, and I find that deeply disturbing. I will be apologizing for the most recent lapse tomorrow, but I haven't been able to catch up with the other victim of my poor sleep habits.

I am not certain when my sleep hygiene went bad, but I suspect it is chronic - from early bad reading habits (reading in bed), to various periods of drug abuse (by which I mean too much drugs altering my sleep rhythm.

It got worse during the stress of my first marriage. There was a lot of strife, and it is during this time that I started grinding my teeth in my sleep. 

Later, it became a matter of my schedule being in conflict with my emotional wants and needs. Having a day job and playing music frequently kept me out late at night, without being able to correspondingly slip my wake-up time to compensate.

I began getting less sleep. I never had trouble falling asleep. In fact, I would fall asleep abruptly, and quickly as soon as my head hit the pillow. How quickly I fell asleep became a joke with girlfriends and then my second wife. 

Lately, it is simply not being able to easily wind down after playing in the evening. I have been able to get home early (relative to older days, when I would be out very late), only to find myself with an excess of 'nervous energy' which I try to dissipate watching TV or doing some cleanup from dinner, only to fall asleep in my recliner, waking up at three or four in the morning. 

Then, the old version of my insomnia kicks in - not being able to fall back asleep. It usually takes one or two hours to fall back asleep. Which brings me to my weekends - when I usually don't get out of bed until lunchtime, or later. Friday nights, if I relax at all, I fall asleep very early - between eight and nine o'clock. If I don't wake up midnight, my evening is blown

Today, after my afternoon barbecue, I came home, wanting to go out at around ten. Somewhere around 9:00 or 9:30, I was down, and waking up just after eleven, I just couldn't think about going out, and my night was effectively over (I watched a movie).

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Food and Diet Section

Today's Weight:        199.8 lbs 
Yesterday's Weight:    200.0   lbs 
Day Net Loss/Gain:     - 0.2 lbs

Year 2012 daily weight from December 31, 2011.

Diet Comment:

This cheat day begins nicely, skipping breakfast, and getting my first food at a barbecue I went to in the late afternoon through dinner time. I am just going to list the food I ate there and after. No pictures.

Food Log

Breakfast
Skipped.

Lunch-Dinner-After

• Cheeseburger on a bun with mustard
• Sausage on a bun
• Hot dog on a bun
• Pasta salad
• Brownies
• Cookies
• Second Nature Wholesome Medley (dark chocolate chunks, roasted and salted peanutss, almonds and cashews, tart red cherries and dried cranberries).
• Michelob Ultra (1 can)

Liquid Intake    Coffee:   0 oz,   Water: 80+ oz

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