October 3, 2012
October 3, 2012 (Wednesday)
(Post 617, Day 277 of 2012, 642 days since 1st post)
(Post 617, Day 277 of 2012, 642 days since 1st post)
Daily Comment
I did something today that is a first for this blog. I deleted a Daily Comment I had written.
Because my approach to these things is like my approach to music (jazz), I have never felt that my writing had to be perfect, or even interesting to anyone else. I state a theme in the first sentence, then riff on that theme, until I reach what to me seems like a conclusion. It is a simple process, and it has never created anything I felt was unworthy of my blog.
Until today.
Today, I called "Bullshit!" on myself. Today, I was writing about an influential book I read 50 years ago.
When I was done writing, I re-read it, and it felt wrong. I realized that some of my memories of the book, how I felt and what was going on in my life when I read it, were wrong, that I was memory-editing, and being inauthentic.
Fifty years is a long time.
Insofar as I can help it, this blog is not a work of fiction. Any lapse of truth is unintentional (or, if intentional, noted). When I realized my memories of the book and my life at the time I was reading it, weren't internally consistent, it was a bit of a shock, but it shouldn't have been.
My memory is not reliable. I know I've edited it, that my viewpoint may not have been accurate in the first place, that my emotions affect my perceptions, and that perceptual filters color memories before, during and after the fact.
Usually, though, it is just me fooling myself, and I don't doubt my memory's accuracy. Occasionally, as in this time, there is so much confusion and emotion attached to a memory that it is obvious, even to me, that I'm fictionalizing.
I am attached to fantasy; I like it, find it valuable in my life. Still, I am uncomfortable putting unlabeled inaccuracies out in 'print'.
Because my approach to these things is like my approach to music (jazz), I have never felt that my writing had to be perfect, or even interesting to anyone else. I state a theme in the first sentence, then riff on that theme, until I reach what to me seems like a conclusion. It is a simple process, and it has never created anything I felt was unworthy of my blog.
Until today.
Today, I called "Bullshit!" on myself. Today, I was writing about an influential book I read 50 years ago.
When I was done writing, I re-read it, and it felt wrong. I realized that some of my memories of the book, how I felt and what was going on in my life when I read it, were wrong, that I was memory-editing, and being inauthentic.
Fifty years is a long time.
Insofar as I can help it, this blog is not a work of fiction. Any lapse of truth is unintentional (or, if intentional, noted). When I realized my memories of the book and my life at the time I was reading it, weren't internally consistent, it was a bit of a shock, but it shouldn't have been.
My memory is not reliable. I know I've edited it, that my viewpoint may not have been accurate in the first place, that my emotions affect my perceptions, and that perceptual filters color memories before, during and after the fact.
Usually, though, it is just me fooling myself, and I don't doubt my memory's accuracy. Occasionally, as in this time, there is so much confusion and emotion attached to a memory that it is obvious, even to me, that I'm fictionalizing.
I am attached to fantasy; I like it, find it valuable in my life. Still, I am uncomfortable putting unlabeled inaccuracies out in 'print'.
Please leave a comment if you visit my blog. Thank you!
Food and Diet Section
Today's Weight: 204.8 lbs
Yesterday's Weight: 203.4 lbs
Day Net Loss/Gain: + 1.4 lbs
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| Year 2012 daily weight from December 31, 2011 |
Diet Comment
Bah - okay, no more pepperoni and cheese - Why did I buy these trigger foods?
Food Log
Cocoa-kale protein shake (almond milk, whey protein (36g protein), kale, chia gel, a large egg, cocoa, vanilla, cinnamon, stevia-erithrytol blend).
Lunch
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| Tuna salad on Spring Mix, red cabbage and balsamic vinaigrette. |
Cookies. Fail.
Dinner
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| Shahi Rajma (red bean curry) with spinach and eggs. Not shown: Baby carrots and home-made mayonnaise. |
Snack
Baby carrots and home-made mayonnaise.
Liquid Intake
Coffee: 22 oz, Water: 116+ oz.
Please leave a comment if you visit my blog. Thank you!
posted by Reverend Ken at
8:27 PM
1 Comments:
What book was it? I am good- 5th day on south beach. Dan's birthday coming up on the 9th and he has grown out of size medium shirts!!! Love you
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